What I Wouldn’t Give

They say I’m keeping secrets
They whisper for their fun
But if they knew what I had given
If they knew what I had done

What I wouldn’t give to hold my child again
What I wouldn’t give to love a gentle man

But the forces of this world are cruel
They take it all away from you
I trusted my sick child to the river’s care
And he was taken there

I held her hand
And I felt the dark descend

What I wouldn’t give to have a sense of peace
What I wouldn’t give for the freedom of release

The dreams you dare dream for yourself
Just bait the snare; Trap you in hell
I wish I never felt the love I did

But to let the one who stole it all from me
Go free
And live
That’s what I wouldn’t give

What I wouldn’t give to be what I pretend
What I wouldn’t give to confess it all to him

No one has a child alone
The sin we share, the pain I own
I gave up everything with that first kiss

But to let the one who stole it all from me
Go free
And live
That’s what I wouldn’t give

My parents lost their lives
I was unwanted, left behind
I never thought I’d be a mother
I guess I’m not one any longer
And I could tell the truth
But then I would be accused
How did I become witness to a lifetime full of lies

What I wouldn’t give to make it all all right?
What I wouldn’t give to bring back every stolen life?

But I’m just one voice in the crowd
A broken vessel whose drown out
I’ll never find the joy and love I’ve missed

But to let the one who stole it all from me
Go free
And live
To forgive
That’s what I couldn’t give
That’s what I wouldn’t give